Little Miss Apple Pie

I went to the mall with Mac this morning. It's been nearly two years but we still haven't watched a movie together in the cinemas so we decided to finally do it today, since we're kind of getting tired of watching movies on computer screens. Ha-ha! We were planning to watch The Asiong Salonga Story, but the screening schedule is not until 6:30pm, so we opted for another movie instead. We chose to watch Segunda Mano since the trailer seems to be pretty nice, we figured that the movie is great. But that thought was cut short as the movie reached it's first half-hour. Before we went in the theatre, we bought snacks first from the department store then we had brunch at KFC. We shared one Zinger Fully Loaded Meal, four rice and three bowls of gravy. No other fast food would ever satisfy us than KFC, it's an all time favorite and no date is complete without it. If it's not available we opt for McDonald's, but it will always be our first choice. :)

The movie is okay. I can't say it's bad, and I can't say that it's good either. The plot is pretty predictable, but it's okay, it's not like we wasted money or anything; it's not disappointing as well. We find the movie pretty funny, or perhaps we're just one of those people who snicker at the most simple things. The actors are convincing, they were great it's just that the plot is, as I said, predictable that it kind of made the movie a little boring. There are no scenes that would make the audience scream as we have expected, or perhaps we just don't find it that way either. I guess we're just used to more horrifying films, or maybe the actress who played the ghost doesn't look creepy or scary at all. But whatever the movie turned out to be, I could say that we both really had fun watching it.

And yes, believe it or not, it's actually our first time to watch a movie together in the cinema. It was actually my idea at first, because I find watching movies pretty costly and I have this fear of watching a lame film. That's why we've been watching movies at home, at least we get to choose what movie we want to watch without worrying of the date or year it was shown. I was just being practical ha-ha, but he insisted that we finally do it, and I just can't refuse when he said that we're going to watch The Asiong Salonga Story. I've been wanting to watch it since they first aired the trailer on TV. We're still kind of disappointed that we haven't seen The Asiong Salonga Story, but we promised ourselves that we'll watch it soon, no matter what it takes. Ha-ha! Nonetheless, we loved what we did today and we will definitely have a go at it again in the future.

I love hanging out with Mac like we both have nothing to do, we kind of miss being bums but we just could not afford to bum around for too long anymore. It's a great feeling though, being productive, but nothing beats a chill out day with the person you love being with. <3

Mac have always dreamed of going to a concert with me, so when he found out that Katy Perry is playing Manila again, he asked me if we could watch it together. We both agreed that we'll try our best to save up for at least the bronze ticket, but since we have a lot of things to save up for first, the California Dreams concert thought was put aside.

But a couple of days ago he told me that Evanescence will also be having a concert in Manila next month, knowing for a fact that I used to be (and I guess I still am) a huge fan of Amy Lee. I nearly hyperventilated in excitement, believe me I'm not exaggerating. ;) But I already figured out that Evanescence would be more expensive than Katy Perry.

I have not been in a concert for over a year, and it's a sad thing for me because way back in high school I used to follow my favorite local bands around Manila, and even in Cebu. LOL I miss screaming like a sissy fan girl on a Hale concert. Ha-ha! Came college, the only time I could watch a gig or a concert is when local bands are playing in bars nearby, or if the council invited one. I miss watching concerts, it's been a great part of my life at some point. It's my other way of winding up on a Friday or Saturday night after a week long of stress from school.

So I decided to Google other upcoming concerts, and found out that a great deal of artists are coming to the Philippines this year. YAY! I've also just been informed by my good friend May that A Rocket to the Moon will be having a mall tour next month, I guess there's a fat chance that Mac and I could watch them. I'm still trying to look for something bigger that would happen during the summer like Death Cab for Cutie, they'll be having a concert in Taguig on March 5th. I guess it would be much better since we could have enough time to save up for it, and we will most probably be not too busy. But we will definitely watch A Rocket to the Moon! Ha-ha! Not only am I a fan, but also because I want to do something good for Mac. <3 In the mean time, I'm thinking of watching local bands with Mac, I was thinking of Pupil, Bamboo, Urbandub, The Dawn, Franco or better--KAMIKAZEE! Ha-ha! But I haven't looked into their gig lists yet, I might do it tomorrow.

BTW, I updated the site pages and added some new content in the Visitor's page. Finally have FREE WORDPRESS THEMES for you to download! Tell me what you think.

It's been over a year since you have departed, and I must say that it was not easy for me to be dealing with the agonizing situation you left me in. You left just when I was starting to include you in my world, just when we were planning to append each other in one's future.

It's been a hard year for me, I could not seem to fully let you go. Every now and then I would think of you and be hurt of the fact that I could no longer see you. Although, I know that you are there, watching over me from wherever you are right now, still, it's not the same. It will never be the same.

Sometimes, the pain just becomes too corpulent, that I find it hard to bear it. I would cry myself to sleep every time that happens, and in the morning, when I wake up, I would pray to see you in my dreams the following nights, even just for once. I would just like to hug you and tell how much I love and miss you, and how much I still needed you. But that never happened.

I spend so much time busying myself with things that I love to do, but sometimes, I just get tired and bored of them. I want to do something for you, and not for other people. I want to mostly write about you, and for you, but I know you will never get to read them and appreciate them, because you're gone and will never be back. Perhaps, even when the apocalypse comes, you will not be there to hold my hand.

I am not angry, I am just upset.

Upset of the fact that you left me too soon... I know you lived a good life, you helped a lot of people and you played a big part in others' lives, but you played and been a part of my life for only a short while. I envy those children you often kissed and hugged, I never had many of those in my life, perhaps that explains my crankiness -- my lack of affection from people that I love.

I'm not sure if I am even making sense here, but I just want to let it out, even if it's not everything. This is the only way I know.

My step-dad bought me this book last Saturday (April 9) before I went to watch Mac's basketball game.

I was reading 20 Times a Lady by Karyn Bosnak then, so I finished reading that book first. I started reading this new book this morning as I eat breakfast and as I went to work. I was also reading it a while back, until I decided to Google Alexander the Great. I kind of need to brush up on my historical knowledge a bit, I sort of forgotten a lot about him from my history class. Shame on me, Miss-I-Badly-Want-To-Change-My-Major-To-HISTORY! :))

Well the story pretty much tells about Alexander and his life under his father King Phillip II and how he became the great warrior that he is. In the novel, he kept on dreaming about a woman wearing a red tunic, which he thinks is the woman that would bear his heir. The novel is pretty disturbing, with men making love and sucking--you know what--got to keep things a little censored here, my younger sisters might be reading this. :))

I couldn't put this book down, despite the disturbing parts, but I kind of get the hang of it now. haha.

I wonder where you are right now

As I sit here all alone

Thinking of the good things that we shared and did

All the plans that we have made and built

How I hoped that they never ended.

But God has a better plan for me

And so I must let you go

No grudges held, no regrets

I have finally forgiven you.

— Mia Venus, Sept. 6, 2010

For years, people within an institution have been doing the same routine. People whose term has ended were replaced by those who have worked for years; some people retain a position while others gain a new one. It has been the case for so long that it has become a tradition.

Traditions are meant to be good, that is why it has been called so and has been followed by succeeding generations and apparently, it has been giving great hope to those who follow it.

Hope in the sense that it gives people a chance to gain a position in an institution, may it be a major one or simply within an organization. But traditions are sometimes butchered by great innovations. Notice that the term butchered was used to describe how innovation enters the scenario. Why butchered? Why not?

Was not that what people always say whenever someone proposes something new? Is it not that when people finally implement an innovation, it starts a commotion? Majority will surely agree that traditions will be butchered if innovations are done. But it does not always have to be the case. For people must first learn how to weigh decisions to be able for them to come up with a wise and right one. People, especially those who are in the position, do not just jump into conclusions; they always have to undergo a long, mind-bothering and unanticipated process before they come up with something sensible and prudent. This is how innovations are being considered.

People would react negatively when someone implements something new, especially if it would bypass their rights or would diminish their power, if they have one. Those who have the capacity would protest and pull down whoever is the implementer of an innovation just because they could not adapt to certain changes. Talk about Crab Mentality; is it not such a hideous act?

Some would even talk about prudence, even though it is clear enough for everyone to see that the person is not even a bit prudent himself. Some prudent people, as what they call themselves to be, are sometimes very good in saying wise words and backstabbing hardworking people and telling lies about them such as they are not working hard enough or they are not doing their job. But often times these prudent people are the ones who do not do anything at all.

It is in fact a saddening truth that where critical thinkers and intelligent people are so dominant, there are still a great number of people who ensnare themselves inside the box of ignorance.

Remember this, no matter how intelligent a person is, if it cannot adapt to even minor changes, it would remain feeble- minded. There is nothing wrong about being traditional, but people would have to think and live outside the box for their own good. There will always be a room for improvement; we just have to push some things aside to make way for it.

Prudence - or self-control; careful about one’s conduct; circumspect.

Basically it means to avoid offending one’s fellowmen and not to boast of one’s exploits or intellectual prowess.

It is actually okay to talk about prudence and all those related things. But comparing yourself to another person is another thing, and to some people, it must not be done. Especially if you are comparing yourself to someone ten times more hardworking than you are. Ika nga nila in Filipino, “Okay lang mag yabang kung may ipagyayabang naman.” Why talk about other person’s prudence if you yourself do not have it? Or perhaps, sometimes you lose it? There really is no point in ranting about other people’s business and pulling them down through it. Does “CRAB MENTALITY” ring a bell?

Anyway, what I am only trying to say is that, we all do not have the right to judge other people and blatantly give a lecture in prudence if we, ourselves, lack it. It only proves how shallow, immature, judgmental and disrespectful you truly are.

Do a self-assessment first before jumping into conclusions. Life is full of motherfuckers, DO NOT add up to their growing population.