Little Miss Apple Pie

I just had a dream and I dunno whether it's good or bad, though. 

There I was walking down the aisle. The air was filled with  that Eric Bennet song entitled The Last Time...

I looked around and saw how much people there was, looking at me in big grins. Most of them I recognize; friends from real life, acquaintances and family... In this sea of familiar faces, I found myself searching for the groom and just before I reached the aisle, I saw him standing with his back on me. 

When he finally turned to look at me... My heart was sent aflutter. He was smiling as tears fall from his eyes. Somehow, I wanted that moment to never end... Seeing how happy he was. How happy I felt.

It felt too real that waking up hurts. 

I thought I was doing good; I didn't know that one dream can actually send me back to square one.

We're all artists.

It had been a while since he last talked to her. She lost all hope, but then he called at the most unexpected time. 

Then...

He asked her, "Do you still love me?" She cried silently. Big, fat tears fell from her big brown eyes. And all she could muster to say was, "God knows," instead of a straightforward 'Yes' because she was frightened that he still won't do anything to keep her if she did.

He misses her. It was evident. But to leave her and keep her at bay was not the way she thought things would end. But it did. They separated, after living as man and wife, they decided to part ways. And so, even though they are still irrevocably in love, both tried to conceal it a little, though it was hard.

Whatever may become of them, they left it for the universe and all the gods to decide for them. Time will tell, they'd tell one another, but their hearts, oh their hearts were screaming each other's name; it ached and long for the other every single day. They wept everyday as if they were mourning from each other's absence.

Despite of this though, they did their best to be civil and remained in contact. Both secretly hoping that the other would remain faithful and in love when he returns.

The night ended. But their strong affection did not. 

The words have escaped me

A train of thought

Of what I had hoped to tell you

But it no longer matter

I guess

I just realized

That though my affection 

Have never ceased

Never left me

You did so and easily

And so were the words

I was trying to say

They have slipped from my grasp

They escaped me swiftly

One for each day

For a year

All 365 of them

Folded and sealed them 

But never sent them 

Not even one

With each letter

Sealed with a kiss

I poured my heart 

With thoughts of longing

Of hurt and despair

I wanted you to read them 

And feel my pain

But never sent them

Not even one

For I know

That even if you read them

You won't feel what I feel

Not even a bit

For though you said 

It hurt when you left

Still you turned from me

Without even glancing back

Not even once

You did not.

xx